Nothing I have is truly mine...

Hi Guys!
Its been the most difficult few days for me...thanks to my friends and lovely sisters for making me wake up! LOL.

So so...I'm still struggling to keep up with work and uni. Thank u "" for pinging me endlessly to wake up. "" *faints* :)

To more pressing issues...its about that time of the year yet again! I absolutely love love Christmas. Family, love and life all connect to this beautiful season.
I've had 19 beautiful Christmas-ses in my life and I'm sure this one would be great. Presents, family, friends and loved ones...the whole package.

However, unlike you and me, some people don't have these things we take for granted.
Last year, My Christmas charity was Great Ormond's street Children's Hospital. I was glad I could be of little help. www.gosh.org/Donate-Now



This year, I would really appreciate suggestions for which Charity to sponsor this Christmas out of the very little I have. Nothing I have is truly mine...


Please drop suggestions via e-mail or fb...any means really. Would really appreciate your suggestions.

I will be in Nigeria this Christmas and would appreciate details of Charities that need our love this Christmas.

Sorry this post is all over the place, stealing some work time...

I'll keep you posted.

ONE LAST THING: Christmas is all about giving, give everything but most importantly...all your love x

LOVE SOMEONE THIS CHRISTMAS.

Yours,
Teetleskittles.

Be Ye not Cynical...

Hi guys,
My post tonight is centred around the mis-conceptions about feelings. Sometimes situations make us hold back, thus making us restrained from people.

You hear everyday about someone saying "Love" doesn't exist. Personally, my classification of Love is the kind that is assured and certain. Parents love love love love endlessly...You know their love is certain, Its not determined by how well you look or how much you try not to be yourself to please someone.
It is assured because you always know that they will never for once do anything to hurt you...Top love I call it!

Friends and Family exhibit Love similarly, might not be as pronounced as how our parents feel about us but it sure is something. Some Friends...*sigh*, without certain friends in my life I would be ...I don't even have a word. Thank God for friends :*

The kind of love and affection that comes with being in a relationship with someone just tops the list for me. I am a sucker for lovers! The "awwws" and sniffs and what not! Tito get a grip!

"Do not be cynical about love..." Max Erhmann in my beloved beloved Desiderata, couldn't have explained this in a simpler way.

If it didn't work out with Mistake A, it will with B...if it doesn't, just keep loving! Yh its easier said than done right? Well, nothing in life goes as planned...unfortunately for some, they lose sight of that 4 letter word and its all lost. In no way should that make you feel like it's the end. It wasn't just meant to be. I love that phrase! *chuckles*

Believe me I am not one that you'd "aww" over and all...Its just a lot to write on here. But still I am not cynical about love.

To get out of my own frustration(call it whatever), I drool over cute couples and awwwww till I realise I'm doodling hearts on my lecture notes! Ironic ey...I'm a fish. I'm a lover.
Pisces!
I don't do star signs and all...just the good bits to it I embrace...like...

"Pisces are tuned in to a higher purpose and their dreams transcend the individual. A deep love for humanity, and compassion that knows no bounds is found with this placement of the Sun."

"Their imagination, attunement to humanity, and remarkable intuition endow them with enviable gifts of insight and creativity."

"Pisces is a sensitive sign—both sensitive to criticism and sensitive to others' feelings. Easily touched by human suffering, Pisces wouldn't hurt a fly." (Did you read that!) *Halo*

"They believe in people, are deeply hurt by compassionless human behavior, and have a hard time saying no." (True)

"Harsh realities are avoided either through escapist behavior or self-delusion; but every now and again reality does raise its ugly head, and hits Pisces over the head." (I have been called Delusional *straight face*)

"When they have been hurt,they come back stronger, with a spring in their step, ready to face the world again, and just as, if not more, compassionate and trusting as they were before." (Yup..)


"Some might even wonder if Pisces finds pleasure in suffering." I'll explain this bit how I understand it...Premise 1: People don't want to be treated bad. Premise 2: People are constantly being treated bad. Conclusion: People get used to it. Its not as so they find pleasure in suffering.


"Sometimes this is the case, but most of the time, Pisces pulls a lot of creative energy from sadness." Personally, I can relate to this...as a child, if anything upsets me, I'd run up to my room and write...Until recently, I realised most of my poems as a child were about suffering, sadness, cruelty to human beings, basically melancholy! Don't get me wrong, I had a happy childhood (Just in case my parents are reading this lol!U made me a happy child, I was just a bit different :/). The fact that most of my juvenile poems are unhappy is because I only wrote when I was unhappy. My pen has always been my dearest friend, I voice out my thoughts and plans to my pen. My poems as a child were very good, I wrote this sad poems better than I wrote any other thing! Did I pull out my creativity from sadness?...I'm sure you're like yh this chick is sad! *mutters*


"Pisces Suns absolutely care—their love knows no bounds—but their retreats from ordinary life (whether they are as simple as daydreams or actual departures)." I can relate to this, absolutely. U guys that know me know this. I give a 101% equally to everyone even tho my sister begs to differ! mmwa for u x


Enough about the Piscean theory already! I hope my point has been made now. Like a few people (hopefully, don't make me feel alone *pouts*), I love seeing happy couples, counting stars, being treated like a princess, flowers at the doorstep...all that! I like all that, I love all that! However, in my 'other' world I'm a princess, I've got Prince Charming feeding me grapes on his horse (he tatooed my name around his horse by the way)...We count stars, gaze into each others eyes...the full p! U get me!

Then I wake up.

...

It is absolutely normal, I escape from reality a lot BUT eventually we all have to come around sooner or later.

By the way my friend is getting marrriiieeedddd in March, and no they are not old!lol! if you're reading this babe Congrats G and D! I constantly drool over this people! lol! Wish you guys all the best...xx

Yes! My people...There's one person who loves us loves us loves us...loves me! GOD!More than we can ever think or imagine...Amazing!

And let's love our maker back to...whatever or whoever we acknowledge as Our maker.

....

Do not be cynical about love, its beautiful...and believe me from what I see around me, its real too!

ONE LAST THING:I shall be drooling over some of ya soon...pls do more PDA...public display of affection, so I can see and drool some more!

God bless you, love me x

Yours
Teetleskittles.

Tread Softly...

Hi Guys
I know I know…come here *huggie*. For those who know this girl personally, she’s been through the biggest few weeks ever…Uni, work…My internship is a lot on me at the moment…not the work involved as a Quality Engineer, it’s the routine. Early Mornings…Rush hour…A cold hour’s drive. I’m not complaining still, remember how elated I was when I got the placement…yhh now look who is laughing! *straight face*. I’ve had a few breakdown moments …admitting this takes a lot hunnie. I like to be referred to as that Strong Black fierce Lioness *Grrr* but its aii…cry babies are human too ey!

Oh well..I’ve come out of my room and I’m still trying even after 5 weeks to get used to this new routine. The “Grown up” routine. I have been so detached from civilization and friends…Been out only once this term…losing my party animalism!

Certain experiences these past few weeks have not made me stronger…but let’s give it time. Took even Rome a while too!

I really honestly crave the time in my life where I can blog as much as I would like. I have soo much to say!

Weekly routine: Uni-Work-Work-Uni-Lib-Work-Gym-Home-Stuff my face-Try to sleep. These needs to change ey… oh did I tell you about SLEEEP ZZzzz…Insomnia.

Allow me to share with you, a few lessons I have learnt recently…

The Brevity of Life: I don’t in anyway mean to depress you…life is shorter than we think. Live well…

Things to be desired: Whatever makes another person happy and whatsoever develops you to be a kinder person…that’s what we should long for.

Tread softly…one of my favorite poets W. Butler Yeats, in his poem ‘He wishes for the cloths of Heaven’, said “Tread softly because you tread on my dreams’. Likewise, I believe it is necessary to be gentle when relating to people. Even loving friends will hurt us…it should be a constant reminder to tread softly when it comes to issues of the heart. We all have hearts…ever met a heartless person? Yh?...No one is without a heart. We all need to make a conscious effort to treat people softly…hearts break so easy.

Keep Going! Life may throw bricks and we get bruised a little…watch out cos it may be spheres, rocks or even meteors next. Whatever comes around, we should develop the ability to “Shield ourselves in sudden Misfortune”…Desiderata Max Erhmann.

Gotta run now, Lunch break over *mutters*.

Catch up soon!

One Last Thing: Be thankful

Yours,
Teetleskittles

Mr Actor guy oh so beautiful...

Hi guys!
I know I've been away for a while, so much has happened and I have grown since you read me last!

March was a great month, my birthday!
April was great...Easter...
May..hmmm exams, anxiety, hot flushes (I'm only young) lol
June was great, very long month though...felt like it wasn't going to end. My mum and sister's birthday on the 9th. Beautiful, I know :)

July! *sigh*...I had soo much planned for the summer but it seems like NOTHING will go as planned. The month started out errr ok, moving house and getting ready for next year.

I got my internship placement for October!!!! British Railcare got me! Lucky them :D
Believe me I am chuffed!

I wish I could publish a copy of my results...but that'll be showing off and you guys know how down to the soil I am!*halo*

My results though!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My sister's graduation, 14th June...I have been a very proud sibling since 1991, however, that day I was even redder! even more excited than my mum, Only I didnt wear a big gele. Watching her walk up to get her certificate made me very proud, she is indeed a hard worker.

Now its 3 down and only Tito left to go! 2013 seems a veryyyy long time but my parents will just have to wait! *mutters*

Beautiful it was :)

Kindly bear with my random thoughts...

Beyonce's song "Best thing I never had" is so amazing! Lest i forget, Mr Actor guy oh so beautiful, swept me off my musical feet.



He is beautiful...Beyonce hmm...FOR I COVET THIS MAN!!!



For those who havent noticed, fast forward till you see him smile, then pause for eternity!! He is my kind of man...too beautiful, dark skinned handsome CHAI!




.....What do u think and I have been searching for his name everywhere. What's his identity, who is HE? Who are youuuuu?!

Till then, kindly be my own Mr Actor guy oh so beautiful!



Well guys, just needed to catch up. I promise I won't be as distant as I used to be!

ONE LAST THING: I have so much to tell you...look out for my next post!x

Yours,
Teetleskittles

Count your blessings...twice over :)

Another evening, chilling as usual. Unusual messages from the unusual. Frustrated replies...a call from mum.

Disappointment then reconciliation.

Interviews.Meetings. The shops! :D...MORE love from the Mother :)

Effortless De-cluttering. Instant Progress.

Hi guys!

For the past couple of days,I have failed to count my blessings. I have let people get in the way. I only JUST realised that giving them audience increased their ill-will.

There is so much I have taken for granted.
Family,Health, Beauty, Love...
We all have that one thing that wakes us up and makes us conscious of the reality.

I saw a video on youtube which i'll share with you. A little girl singing to her baby sister who suffered the serious effects of Placenta abruption.

That moment it sunk in...no matter how bad it is for you, you never realise what someone else is going through.




The video humbled me...the sincerity and love.

Learning to control emotions especially anger can seem very daunting for some of us. However, the consequences do not justify the reason.It disrupts other people's normal lives.

We all learn from our mistakes and grow through them.

A few minutes after I saw the video, I got the news about the Earthquake in Thailand. A few days after the Tsunami in Japan. I heard myself ask "why again?!".

...Happy night. 25/03/2011 <3
:)

Going to bed: I get a broadcast saying someone just had an accident and is in need of blood. I say a little prayer.
:(

This morning: I wake up to hear that the lady passed on. She was 23 years old.

Weak.
The abruptness and brevity of life...

Why does something so inevitable not take its time...what's the rush death?

It hurts more than ever when people die but mostly when its someone so young...like they died even before they lived.

All is vanity: If you asked me two days ago about what I consider "worth" living for. It'll be nothing compared to what I think now. All = Vanity, the chasing after the wind.

There is no worthiness in a life that doesn't bless others directly or indirectly. *Note to self*

I have taken most things, if not everything, for granted.
Being alive and well is everything.

Its not difficult making ones life a blessing to others.

Hold my hand, let's do this together. Selah.

ONE LAST THING: T.G.I.F!

Have a great weekend and remember to count your blessings twice over :)

Yours,
Teetleskittles

A Valentines' Eve to remember

Memories you want to let go of, actually go. Some memories stay no matter what.
Nine years on i still can't comprehend the abruptness of death. Sometimes, I wish I had seen you more often or at least told you how much I loved u. I never really remember saying those words to you. You've looked down on me all these while and made me realise how wonderful life is with the ones you love around...every time!

Hi guys,
On my way home, securely fastened(much necessary when Mr Monday is driving!..jeez) in the car, Mr Monday's fuji song playing ever soo painfully loud, with his usual complaints about how many minutes he waited for me in the car park (10 mins IS half hour *tssk*). I apologise as usual. Eating groundnuts and "bolly" with his rather long dirt-trapped nails (claws), he said (with his mouth full) "Daddy is in Iseyin, so Grandma will come and check on you this evening..." in Yoruba. I was soo excited, although my grandma lived on the next street, we hardly saw her that often.
Warm and lovely.
I never understood how a mother of six children and numerous grandchildren could have time for everyone and the care???...ineffable!

Did I mention how intelligent the retired secondary school principal was?! My o my was she highly cerebral!

Its not a wonder in the world, that my dad turned out a genius (hehehehe)!

Continuing on from my excitement that evening... as I got home, my Grandma was sat in the Big sitting room (out of bounds to the rugrats), reading her not-so-pretty-looking Bible and a devotional, with her thick frames on and all the lights on.

I ran towards her for her signature warm big squeeze...you know the kind you want to last forever! and her smell...she always smelt like that, no other grandma did! Not even my Mum's mum or my favourite great aunt. No one else.

"Toyin, go and take off your school uniform and come back for some popcorn" she said. I hardly ever had the "luxury" of eating between meals, so yeah popcorn sure made me do a lil happy dance! Its the sweetest popcorn I've tasted, maybe I'm biased, maybe not. My grandma made it the sweetest :)

As I sat next to my Nan, watching her read her Bible with such interest and passion (I was confused lol), the almighty Aunty Agnes marches in (She became such a "militant" since my mum travelled and put her in "charge"). In her deep Calabar ascent, she said, "Beans and dodo is ready come and eat". Never been my favourite meal, and I hardly escaped a week without being forced to eat it...all I remember: that evening I ate only my dodo. I <3>The love my parents and siblings have for me, that's what keeps me going *and of course, yours too :)* hehe.



This Valentines, even if you've not yet been "accidentally" hit by no-clothed-arrow-pointer-Fattie-orobo-cupid, how about just telling the people that mean the most to you, you love em.

Whatever you do this Valentines',make sure you spend it with that ONE or the people who keep you ticking. Life is way shorter than we think and wayyy lovelier than we accept.

Love someone this Valentines'.

Have a lovely one. DO NOT FEIGN AFFECTION.

One last thing: Reflecting makes you appreciate the ones you love even more...Count your blessings, count them two times over...they wont live twice.

Lots of love.
Yours,
Teetleskittles.